10 Things to Accomplish

Chico State is going to be tough. Going from a Community College to a University is not going to be easy!! I am still so excited for Monday to come so I can finally get the ball rolling but the knot in my stomach that is forming after scanning my syllabus' is slowly tightening. I gave up so many things to get here, it's finally here and I'm freaking out. I'm ready for it, dont get me wrong, but I am so unbelievably nervous I can't help but laugh at my self. I thought I was done with all of this, I had my career and my life was set. I am happy that I came to my senses before I had a mortgage to pay or a child to care for and would have been stuck. I am thankful for that. I just am constantly going back to all of the things I gave up to be here. All of them are things... none of them will have impacted my life in anyway, they were all convenient though. They were all things that I would defenitely be happy having right now. Can't I just win the lottery?? O life would be so much easier!

I went through all of my old pictures today. The goal was to motivate myself to get back on track. It kind of just made me sad. I looked so amazing!! Not only did I not realize how great I looked, I let myself lose that and now I have to work really hard to get it back. It did motivate me, but saddened me at the same time. I don't know why it's so hard to eat right and motivate myself to exercise. It really shouldn't be!! I know how great I feel when I stick to it and I know that it will make me feel better, look better, I would be happier and Nicer and I will live longer. Are those not good enough reasons for me?? lol I think I'm just writing it down to tell myself. ya know? Its so easy to say you are going to do something, but actaully doing it is a whole other story. I can start going to the Universities gym Monday, so I know that I have a whole week before school starts to get my routine down there. I have a lot of time each day between my classes to be able to walk over there and burn some calories. I truly hope that that will be motivation enough. I know I will be uncomfortable at first, but I will get there.

Well Chico State isn't really cooperating on the whole Financial Aid thing. No one will answer my questions, and all they are telling me is that there are plenty of other people in the same position as me and I am not a priority. I was really taken aback by that so now I have to try and figure out how I can get my student loan to get processed since now I don't have an income. Should be fun!
I am back on track for my diet though. Yesterday I went on a long long hike with my yellow lab Cody and stopped off at Safeway to stock up on some things that can help me stay on track. :) I always get motivated when The Biggest Loser is on. When I was in High School I was over weight and lost about 50 lbs and got down to a size 6. I was with someone else at the time and after we broke up I met my now boyfriend Chris. He treats me like a Princess and I always want to do nice things for him. One thing I love to do is make him dinner, bad for me, and one thing he loves to do is take me out to dinner, very bad for me. SO I put on about 20 lbs in the year and a half that we have been together. My goal and part of the things that I want to accomplish is taking off that 20 lbs and be happy with myself again. Here I go :)
Once school starts I can start using the gym there and I am excited about the warmer weather so I can go outside on hikes more often. All of the things I want to accomplish will take time so I am trying to take small steps. Almost all of them will take money...... so we will see how that goes. Good day today. Taking the steps and just waiting (rather impatiently) for school to start.

Alright! I'm excited about this. I know that I have alot to learn on here, and I know that the first couple posts will be rough. I'm so happy to have this blog and anyone who follows, it is usch motivation to accomplish the ten things I have always wanted to do in my life. These are things that I have always said were important for me to do, but never important enough to make time for it seemed. Now I am. I quit my job that I had intended on doing for the rest of my life and am ready to start over. I sold my nice new car and bought a bike, with this I paid off all my debt so I was able to quit. On a thursday I sold my car, the next day got accepted to our local university and the next day quit my job. It was a huge life changing experience and I still can't believe I did it. So now that I took that step I am going to take the step towards accomplishing the things that I always felt would provide amazing experiences. Here I go. This is nine of ten of the things I want to do, the tenth thing didn't seem important enough to me, so I am in the process of thinking of something that I have truly wanted in my life. Suggestions are welcomed :)

1.Ride in a Hot Air Balloon
2.Graduate from College
3.Ride a Train from CA to NY
4.Own a Wedding Planning Business
5.Ride Horses on the Beach
6.Finish a Triathalon
7.Volunteer for the Make a Wish Foundation
8. Fit comfortably in a size 6 again.
9. Be on TV.
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